I didn’t expect it to be painful. Rather silly. You’ve been doing this for how long now? And you didn’t think it’d be painful?
“Listen. I was unprepared for my words to summon a tsunami of anguish and confusion.”
Who are you talking to?
“Myself, obviously.” I gesture wildly at the crowd of no one.
Back to the story.
She asked me when I first attended. “So I attempted to describe the timeline – you know, scrunching up my face and calling up the details of the first day.”
Seems a fairly benign question.
“But somewhere between my mouth forming words and recalling the emotions of that time I was catapulted into the past and lost my mind.”
We’ve done that in therapy before.
I sighed, “I know but I just thought I was done with all the surprises. Now I have to deal with this thing.”
Yes you do. Still waiting for why you’re surprised?